good friday evening. i thought i'd post a picture of japan since we've seen a couple images of france... and japan plays kind of a minor role in our story. abigail mentioned that the french are enamored with japanese culture. i think the opposite is true too. they LOVE france in japan.... anyway... onto the book....
i have found this book to be like a plant or a flower. it starts out as a beautiful bud, and then it slowly unfolds and opens for you - layers of petals revealing a depth and an inner life you might not have imagined when you first noticed a little shoot. of course flowers play an important role in the story too [yellow roses and the camilla in particular].
this is the section where your heart starts to swell. finally, finally renee and kakuro and paloma have each other. it feels like all is as it should be. the beautiful outcasts coming together and realizing that they are not alone. that they all are in pursuit of beauty, art, moments and the very small minute details that make life worth living.
i think in many ways i relate to all three of these characters.... and i long for same proximity to people who share my world view. how lucky they are to live in the same building. to have this deep connection. to be able to wittily discuss what the english invented. to learn and grown from one another. each seems to become a better person - more whole, more thoughtful, more complete when they are in one another's presence. isn't that ultimately what we want from all of our true friendships?
it's interesting to me to think about the role of class in this novel. i think we in the states are fooling ourselves if we don't acknowledge there is classism here, but i think it operates quite differently from the classism of europe. this is a whole other discussion in and of itself, but i wonder if as an american reader i interpret the class distinctions differently than a french reader would. [this makes me think about karen's translation question again].
in any case, in this section, paloma brings class up in profound thought 14 [the idea of theo the thai baby perhaps wanted to burn cars in frustration over his confusing conflicted history], and again in profound thought 15 where she truly recognizes how different she is from her family and how she can't heal them. with renee it's so obvious that she has mentally escaped her "class", but can't completely transition. with the bourgeois characters we see the worst of class entitlement [and the blinders that come with it].
this book has also made me think about the act of being clandestine. what do we hide behind - like renee? what do we keep secret from others? and why. tragedy? fear? i also love the idea of healing. of wanting to heal others. of the importance of recognizing how to heal and who can be healed.
favorite quotes:
i just loved the whole passage of Journal of he Movement of the World No. 7 pg. 271 [how funny that paloma thinks of her self as a contemplative esthete with Zen and Rosard tendencies] but the end. oh the end....
Because beauty consists of its own passing, just as we reach for it. It's the ephemeral configuration of things in the moment, when you can see both their beauty and death.
Oh my gosh, I thought, does this mean that this is how we must live our lives? Constantly poised between beauty and death, between movement and its disappearance?
Maybe that's what being alive is all about: so we can track down those moments that are dying
i wonder if i should tatoo this somewhere on my body as a reminder.
renee on her afternoon with kakuro [and the idea of companionship] pg. 277:
This pause in time, within time... When did I first experience the exquisite sense of surrender that is possible only with another person? The peace of mind one experiences on one's own, one's certainty of self in the serenity of solitutde, are nothing in comparison to the release and openness and fluency one shares wth another, in close companionship... When did I first feel so blissfully relaxed in a presence of a man?
Today is the first time.
i'll leave it to shari to to delve further into the importance of the camellia, but what a wonderful note to end on. the idea that a simple flower can bring such hope to another being. the miracle of noticing. "Because a camellia can change fate"
happy holidays to everyone.... i'm sort of sad that we are almost done with this book.


